I would've gone back to Xanga but I don't like how they've changed the setup of their website. Plus Xanga is sooooo old news. Like, so middle school.
I remember those feelings though. And what I had gone through. And there was a pause of a couple of months from my whinging. I remember exactly why I did that - from shame, mostly.
I go back to school in a few days. I'm extremely ready. The more time I spend away from home, the more I enjoy my freedom. But, of course, I go further into debt. I only live life once, I suppose.
I have a boyfriend now. It's strange. We've been together about a month and a half. It's strange. And it's been difficult and a roller coaster.
I may be going to California in March. And when I say may, I mean I'm going but I don't know if I will be by myself or with my boyfriend.
And I don't know how I feel about that. I will just say he has a couple of addictions and he will be without them the entire time. But I think that may be the reason why he has been able to handle me. I am difficult. I don't try to be, but that's just who I am.
That bothers me about him, as well. I don't know. He shouldn't need that. And how do I know what he is saying is sincere? Or if he will even remember it the next day?
I think I am just rambling. I will try to be more eloquent down the road.
